Psalm 69:13 – “But as
for me, my prayer is to you, O Lord. At an acceptable time, O God,
in the abundance of your steadfast love answer me in
your saving faithfulness.”
God is God. I can’t change his character or his actions,
unless I create my own god. And that is idolatry. So, when I think I need him
to speak, I can’t make that happen. I have seen through many difficult
situations that he seems to be quiet when those big moments happen. I pray and
cry and read my Bible and most of the time in those moments, he is silent. I
don’t know why, but the fact that he does not act at my whim or even
desperation says a lot about my relationship with him. I have not created him
and maybe that’s the big takeaway. I must wait on a real entity. I am reminded
of his reality in these moments. What I love is the suddenness of his response.
At an unexpected moment, the quiet voice of the Holy Spirit speaks into the
situation and illuminates his word in profound ways. Once again, I am reminded
that I don’t control him. His word often contradicts my expectations and
desires. Even then, my heart is flooded with joy and thankfulness for his
voice. And then, I must respond to his word in trust and obedience. He has made
himself known to me even though I am a sinful person; forgiven, but in need of
his continuing salvation. I need to remember that his silence is a sign to me
of the personhood of himself.
